Sam's Food 4 Thought

 What character traits do I admire the most in others? This is my journal question for today. This one doesn't take much thought because I can tell you right away what really grabs me. When someone is 100% themselves, when they are real. What I mean is, they don't put on a show in front of people to make themselves look like someone else. When they act the same around you alone as they do around 100 people.  Yeah, everyone has their days and at times they may not be themselves, and some people don't want to be social and be around people, but they are still them. Unfortunately, I am friends with people that put on a show in front of groups of people to make themselves appear to be they are loving, super friendly, family oriented and affectionate. These people are not really these people. I know the true behavior of these people and how they act behind the scenes.  How do people pull it off? I would eventually screw up and show my true colors. I'm not good at hiding thin...

 When do I feel the most confident? This is my journal question for today.  After the week I have had it's hard for me to answer that question. I am behind on my posts, and I have no real excuse other than I haven't been feeling it. My anxiety has been running high this week because of all of the activity, and I don't mean good activity. It's been a roller coaster week, many emotions, a lot of venting and getting worked up about stuff. Moments of "no matter what I say or do nothing is right".  I've had a lot of moments where my chest has been tight and I have caught myself tensing up and not relaxing, I can't breathe very well, my head starts to feel loopy. I've been there before and I know what's happening, but I have to calm myself down. It's been a struggle! One bonus thing this week is I have started walking the treadmill. Typically, I walk around my property, but with the weather changing and I don't like walking outside when it...

 What do I wish I felt more of today? I'm not sure how to answer this today. I have had a very productive day today. We are having a family gathering here at our house tomorrow for the October birthdays and I have been cleaning and prepping. We finally got our pool ready for winter too. I also hopped on my treadmill for 25 minutes this afternoon and that felt good! It's been a while. I don't exercise very much these days and I can tell in how my body feels and how it responded to walking for 25 minutes.  I have to start somewhere right? I have been listening to 2 new podcasts and they are very motivating. They are women encouraging women but also sharing their thoughts and feelings when they are struggling.  This is refreshing to hear. Not that I want people to struggle but knowing that I'm not the only one having a rough day or feeling down or feeling overwhelmed, be willing to talk about it and vent it out and then move on. They don't have a perfect life and neith...

 I am happiest when.... This is my journal prompt question today.  I feel like this could be broken down into when I am physically doing something or when I am feeling a certain way.  So, let's break it down. I am happiest when I am playing with my little farm babies and getting love from them.  I am happiest when I am working in my flower beds, and I love seeing my flowers when they are in full bloom. The hard work and frustration have paid off. I am happiest when I am in my craft room and my creative juices are flowing and I am deep into a project.  Most of the time I get to a point where I am so deep into a project, and I have idea after idea and then.....I have to stop to either make dinner or something else not as fun.  That is very frustrating and most of the time I have a difficult time getting back into that same project.  I am happiest when everything seems right in my life, when everyone seems to be getting along, when I don't feel any fricti...

 How am I feeling today?  This is my first journal prompt question.  I attempted to answer this question earlier when I was at work.  Bad idea!  Work is probably not the place to try to add a blog post, especially when my feelings about where I work started to creep into my post and pretty soon all I was typing was Negative Nelly comments.   I am trying to figure out how to answer the question of how I feel today.  Honesty is the best medicine.  Physically I am tired and sort of sleepy. Physically I am disgusted with myself, with how I look. I've felt that way for quite a while. What can I do about it? A lot....but I struggle with being disciplined.  I know it takes a while to create a habit, and I will start and try but then it's easier for me to give in and I get lazy and basically tell myself it's ok to fall off the wagon because I can hop back on at any time. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't.  But, if I don't, how am I goin...

 Good morning!  It's rainy here, but a little warm. This is my second attempt at blogging. I think I am doing this more for myself than I am to actually share it with everyone.  I'm feeling this urge to write or type....something.  Do you listen to podcasts? I started a new podcast this past week and I am addicted! Typically, I listen to True Crime/Serial Killer/Spooky podcasts, but I when I am all caught up then I feel lost because I have nothing to listen to. I'm a binge listener! lol The new podcast I started is called This Morning Walk. It's an inspirational type of podcast, which is totally out of my norm for listening, but I continued to hear it advertised while listening to one of my other podcasts and something told me I needed to check it out. I am addicted!! Podcast — This Morning Walk I started from the beginning and in the beginning, they would post journaling prompts. I feel if I had a journal prompt, I would know what to write/type about.  But that...