What character traits do I admire the most in others? This is my journal question for today. This one doesn't take much thought because I can tell you right away what really grabs me. When someone is 100% themselves, when they are real. What I mean is, they don't put on a show in front of people to make themselves look like someone else. When they act the same around you alone as they do around 100 people. Yeah, everyone has their days and at times they may not be themselves, and some people don't want to be social and be around people, but they are still them. Unfortunately, I am friends with people that put on a show in front of groups of people to make themselves appear to be they are loving, super friendly, family oriented and affectionate. These people are not really these people. I know the true behavior of these people and how they act behind the scenes. How do people pull it off? I would eventually screw up and show my true colors. I'm not good at hiding thin...
When do I feel the most confident? This is my journal question for today. After the week I have had it's hard for me to answer that question. I am behind on my posts, and I have no real excuse other than I haven't been feeling it. My anxiety has been running high this week because of all of the activity, and I don't mean good activity. It's been a roller coaster week, many emotions, a lot of venting and getting worked up about stuff. Moments of "no matter what I say or do nothing is right". I've had a lot of moments where my chest has been tight and I have caught myself tensing up and not relaxing, I can't breathe very well, my head starts to feel loopy. I've been there before and I know what's happening, but I have to calm myself down. It's been a struggle! One bonus thing this week is I have started walking the treadmill. Typically, I walk around my property, but with the weather changing and I don't like walking outside when it...